The mental toll of being overweight

May 18, 2011

I am not what I would consider obese, although according to some of the charts I found on the Internet, I am a few steps over the line. But I don’t think anyone looking at me would call me obese. So I realize some people may wonder what I’m complaining about, being that I’ve never even hit 200 pounds.

It is not lost on me that many people following this blog would kill to be 5’7″ and weigh 186 pounds. But the fact is that a person like me who has about 50 pounds to lose can be just as upset and depressed about her weight as someone who has 100 pounds or more to lose. I won’t claim that the obstacles I face are just as overwhelming. It’s going to take a lot longer for a 300-pound person to get to a healthy weight than it will take me, it’s true. And I can’t say that I’ve experienced just as much prejudice, rudeness, or embarrassment as they have. I’ve never been informed in front of a planeful of people that I’d have to buy an extra seat or been snickered at in the grocery store line. Those things hurt terribly, I’m sure, and I hope that this site will provide inspiration for those of you who have gone through those things.

But I am greatly bothered by my extra weight. Some days it seems like it’s all I think about. There’s never a day when I don’t lament my cellulite-ridden thighs or agonize over the appearance of another roll. And I have too many other things going on in my life, good things, to be spending so much time hating my body. It’s not healthy and it’s not fun.

The only person who can change that is me. I have spent far too much time complaining about how long it’s going to take me to get back in shape and far too little time doing something about it. The negativity gets me absolutely nowhere. I am sad that I spent so many years hating myself for getting fat. I should have just remedied the situation. At the very least, if I wasn’t going to fix it, then I shouldn’t have viewed myself so negatively. It was extremely counter-productive.

Life is short. Let’s lighten both the physical and mental toll together.

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