New fitness regimen, part 4 – NO EXCUSES

April 5, 2012

I’ve started this whole “I’ve gotta lose weight” process over and over again so many times and I’m tired of saying “This time I’M REALLY SERIOUS.” I don’t even believe myself anymore. But it’s never going to happen unless one of these times I actually follow through.

I’m 46 years old and not getting any younger. My younger sister is going to be a grandma this summer, and that means I am plenty old enough to be one myself. I don’t want to go into my grandma years looking and feeling this way about myself. It is high time to stop; I don’t have much time left. No, I’m not dying, but my physical limitations due to age, fibromyalgia, poor nutrition, and my sedentary lifestyle have gotten to the point where it’s not going to be long before I won’t be able to exercise to the degree needed. I won’t need a wheelchair any time soon, but this fibro is kicking my butt, and I know that I could make it better to a significant degree if I gave my body what it needs to function properly.

No More ExcusesSo I am looking at my 47th birthday coming up in three months, and that’s as good a goal as any to see if I can stick with something longer than two months. I have a terrible time getting past that two-month mark; I don’t know what it is. Usually by then I’ve lost 10 or 15 pounds, and that should be enough to really motivate me to further loss. But for some reason when I hit 60 days, I come to a screeching halt. I have no idea why I have such a mental block at that point.

I’ve got to take control. I’m not the person I’m supposed to be. I don’t like the fact that I’ve allowed myself to get off track from what I saw for myself when I looked toward my middle-aged years from the teenage perspective. I simply have to start changing.

Some of my most common excuses follow.

“I don’t have time because I have so much work to do.” But while I’m depressed and beating myself up about not exercising, I’ll sit on the couch and watch TV for an hour and don’t get my work done anyway! It’s stupid. Sure, there are days when I am genuinely too exhausted or sick due to the fibro or whatever, and that’s okay, I’ll deal with it. But on most days there’s absolutely no reason I can’t take an hour for the sake of my health. I waste an hour every day easily. I don’t like to admit it, but I know I do. I need to recapture that time.

“Exercise is too hard.” I recently realized that I have been waiting for it to be easy. Well, maybe not EASY, but at least not very hard. And that’s also stupid. It’s never going to be easy. But it can be enjoyable while also being challenging.

“I love food too much.” Well, get over it, Serena. There are a lot of things I love that I can’t do to the extent desired. I simply have to learn to love good food. And I am. Veggies are pretty good when your palate isn’t ruined by sugar.

“I’m too old to make such big changes.” Pfffft. I’ve seen a lot of women a lot older lose a lot of weight and look and feel great.

“I’ve failed before; I’ll fail again.” This is probably the biggest excuse for me and toughest to overcome. I view myself as someone who can never finish what she starts. And yet I know deep down I can do it if I just stop whining and get busy. I don’t know 100% for sure that I will succeed this time, but I know 100% for sure I won’t if I don’t try. Maybe I need to pretend to be confident until I really am.

What’s your excuse? :-)

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